Learning to Trust

I trust completely that you know what’s best for me
I have wasted too many years.
The time that I turned from your still small voice, only caused me pain and tears.
Season through season, I lived only for myself.
Only turning back to you, when all I needed was your help.
I begged for your grace, I wanted your love, I needed forgiveness from heaven above.
I desired all your blessings with no strings attached,
But when you asked for faithfulness—I had nothing to give back.
I was far too busy with my selfish, worldly gain
To think about the consequences of sowing sin and pain.
Never did I imagine that this season of life would come
When I would reap a harvest of the things that I had done.
How was I responsible?
I was only having fun!
Shaking my fist at heaven, I shout, “Lord what have you done?”
You could have warned me about the pain.
I thought you were loving,
I thought your grace would abound.
Now I sit in suffering, and pain is all I’ve found.

Then I sit and wait—feeling like a fool.
Sinking in my suffering, there is nothing else to do.
As I become more silent, a still small voice I hear.
Asking me to turn around and let go of all my fears.
God says, “I can be trusted—for I gave my Son.
What more is there for me to prove that I care so much for you?”
Then I begin to realize, that his love is all I need.
Searching in this desperate world, only brought me to my knees.
My selfish gain was wasted, like chasing after wind.

Only wish I would have listened, to all the warnings that you gave.
Thought I had more time, thought that I could change.
Now you have brought me to the dessert, a lonely place to live.
But even though I’m lonely, I know that you are there.
Realizing how thankful I am that you would care
You care so much about me, that you brought me to this place.
You have brought me to a valley, to change my heart with grace.
I’m thankful that one thousand years to you is just one day
I’m thankful that you care so much that you want my heart to change.
I’m thankful for the peace you bring, in my loneliness.
I’m thankful that you’ve brought me here—for I see that I am blessed.
Blessed to have a Father, that cares the way you do.
I trust you Lord, and I give this life to you.