This Feeling.

november 13, 2009

it’s such and awkward feeling

what i feel inside.
it’s sometimes unexplainable
so i put it aside.
But is it normal?
do you feel it sometimes too?
or am i alone in this?
What should l do?
i take deep breaths,
count to 10, hopefully that will work.
No, it’s still there
is it sadness, madness, regret? it’s unfair.
it’s a pain so deep, is my heart still there?
i promise I'm normal i live life day to day.
i breath in the same air you do, my heart beats just like yours does.
but, it’s still there.
the silence is now hurting me. it’s so loud
if only you knew, if only i didn’t act so proud.
i took the chance, i fell for love
only to fall straight down, just like with a broken wing falls the dove.
i had dreamed of this, how perfect it felt.
but in the dream i was secure, this feeling i hadn’t dealt.
Now i’m awake. and how i long to sleep
it would make me feel better, for this feeling i do not want to keep.
i can only hope it wont last much longer.
although through this pain i’ll end up much stronger.


It was such an awkward feeling, what i felt inside.
so i got on my knees and to Jesus i cried...